on a sadder note...mason's got such a bad cold and is getting his fourth tooth (the second front one on top is coming in) and it is giving him fits. Brent and I feel so bad for him...because rubbing his constantly snotty nose just frustrates him so much because that's so close to those teeth...he's so miserable it just breaks my heart.
As everyone knows, not everything is always perfect and hunky-dory...those times far outweigh these struggles but these times are hard, too. Simply setting Mason down causes big screaming fits which is not like him at all...NOR is it good for my back...seeing him cry and reach up for me makes me so sad...but I'm like seriously mase...my back is breaking you are after all...26 lbs :) but you can't help but want to love on him more because you know he feels so crummy. He's been coughing all night long, in his sleep but it's so sad to hear...sometimes he'll eat like normal and then other times like tonight, NOTHING is getting in that mouth if there is anything he has to say about it, he'll squeeze those lips together so tight, shake his head :(...so tonight he went to bed without eating his bottle and wasn't happy about it...but what do you do?? we tried to put him down 2 different times before finally I was like...i can't go in there this time and get him. On a normal day...he's excited to get in bed, his legs go 100 miles an hour and he pulls his blanket over his face with huge smiles...not tonight...SCREAMING and YELLING for what feels like forever. And your feelings as a mom can be so crazy...why do you feel SO guilty letting your child cry? on a normal day...if i know he just doesn't want to go to sleep...too bad, Mas...mommy and daddy are boss and it's bedtime, but when he's sick it's an entirely different ball game....my heart was so sad...and i was wanting to cry right along with him. Needless to say he finally fell asleep and now I'm going to bed too, long day at work tomorrow.
I hope nobody thinks this is a 'complaining' blog...just a "TYPE IT OUT" blog! have to share about the not so great things, too, I suppose, i just feels good to vent my mommy feelings. I do have to say, there are some positives to him being sick and having a sore mouth, he's extra cuddly and is giving me so many hugs...and also is taking nice long naps! :) so there are perks to the cold/teething situation. I am just for Mason's sake hoping he's feeling better soon...and I'm sure he will be. I thought I was ready for another one...after this week...pretty sure I want to get on some birth control again.
Thanks for listening...Brent's heard/seen enough already...love you guys...Jess
here's one of the dance moves I wanted to upload the other day...love his dancing...
awh...crossed feet during naptime hehe...
2 comments:
Oh Jess!! Totaly understand your feelings.. I have felt everything you are feeling! I felt like I was having a deja vu!! hahahha! About wanting to ge the birth control, I am not a huge fan of that idea! hahahaha! We need more litlle Hodges kids around!! Plus It's like a yr until the actual baby gets here! by that time Mase will be all over this!I vote for trying/ wanting another one! hahaha hahahha! Love you! miss you!!
I hope it wasn't bella that made him sick the other night. We had so much fun. You were right though Mason does weighs more than Bella! There are ups and downs we learned this past year too, but those moments that melt your heart (a smile, giggle, snuggle) make all the bad times be a distant memory. I've learned to keep saying "it's only a phase" and it will go away/change over a small period of time, although I understand in the moment it's not easy to think that way. We love you and you're great parents! Try oral gel that helped Bella get to sleep since it numbs their mouths.
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